Monday, July 22, 2013

I Carry Your Heart

"Remember 5 years ago, we couldn't bare to be more than an arms-width away from each other; everywhere we went we held hands and smiled, like we were the two luckiest people in the world?" I asked my sleepy husband, fondly remembering the love I felt the day of our wedding.

"Absolutely," he responded immediately with a wide smile and a quick laugh. Then he paused, "Do you think we are still like that today?" I began to think about it and recall our relationship during the last 5 years of our marriage. The downs and bigger downs. The moments of complete bliss of an almost surreal nature. Then the moments over the last few years and the yesterdays we have recently lived. Realizing that we don't always have to hold hands; we don't even have to sit next to each other. In essence, we don't have to be with-in an arms-width away. But, that sounded so unromantic, so typical of marriages fading out of the "honeymoon stage." How was I supposed to answer that without sounding pessimistic the night before our 5th anniversary?

Then, I realized during my nostalgic memory search, my sweet husband had fallen asleep with his arm under my head and a slight smile on his angel face. "So," I thought, "I don't have to answer him." But then I got to thinking while I studied the face of the love of my life and couldn't help but open my laptap so I could write my thoughts before the rapture of the moment I was in left.

John, yes, we are still like that today. Today, we are most definitely still the two luckiest people in the world, our little world. And I'm sure I feel that way even more so now than I did 5 years ago because I know you better and love you deeper, and I know my absolute adoration for you during our "honeymoon phase" will never go to waste because you have continued to be everything I adore. I love you with all that I am.

"I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart."
Happy 5th

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